Darkness

This post was written during one of the delusional and melancholic phases of my life... Now that I read it again, I can't relate to it anymore... But still feel that it's worth sharing...

 

I turn off the lights and look at myself in the mirror...

I see what I am.. shorn off all my delusions..

I see the “I”... neither the “I should” nor the “I would” or the “I think”..

I hate darkness... It makes me see too much of myself...

I turn off the lights... and I’m able to hear myself...

A slow nagging conscience not getting drowned in the humdrum of a busy day..

I hear about my failures, my “what ifs”, my “if onlys” and the imagined conversations of people behind my back..

I hate darkness... It makes me listen to the desperate housewife inside me..

I turn off the lights... and all of a sudden, I’m alone...

My poor shadow disappears.. the shadow that stood by me..

Through the long and short of it... 

Through the highs and lows of mine...

I hate darkness... It makes me feel the air swirling above my goose pimples and the trail of sweat channeling through it...

I turn off the lights... and I don’t rhyme any more...

Life is not a musical, anymore... not whimsical, anymore...

I turn on the lights and nothing changes...

I hate darkness... Specially when I can't find the switch inside my head...

The Propositions of a Married Man

Its been two months since we got wed,

Its better now than never, instead,

To ask you if you'd always be,

The butter on my bread.

If I build castles in the air,

Will you feed the crocodiles of the moat?

And if I go whaling to the lake,

Will you promise not to rock the boat?

And in return, I promise to

swing along wherever your mood takes you.

And to always love you the same (if not more)

as the day when I first met you.

Without much ado, let me propose

to be with you, through joys and woes.

And walk with you through sun and rain,

wherever our destiny goes.

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For my wife, Bira, on the occasion of "Propose Day" in Valentine's Week 2013 (There is a teenager left in all of us) and for successfully negotiating 60 days as my life partner.