Gaps, blanks & voids... that nagging creation of language and thought that breaks the continuity, that unleashes chaos into our seemingly perfect and coherent world..The ultimate source of cognitive dissonance... We, as human beings, have evolved ourselves into adjusting and tolerating with a lot of things in life (including the concept of after-life), but we have never really learned to live with a void. We just cant let a void be left alone. To be or not to be.
We take up the moral responsibility of filling up every void that comes in our life... As if the seamlessness in our lives is our prerogative... But we don’t always fill up this void with something that is of the same ecological constituent that surrounds it... So we hatch up excuses to explain gaps in education, career or life in general.. We try to fill the chasms in our hearts with cigarette smoke or a few pegs of whiskey.. We fall head over heals for somebody just to get over the pain and tribulation of falling head over heals for somebody... We think that we make these excuses or do these stupid acts of emotions and self-destruction in order to bring stability in the world around us; so that people don’t think of these gaps when they think of us. But in reality, we do this to bring a sense of stability within us.. So that we don’t see those gaps or void or chasms or heart breaks when we look at ourselves in the mirror... And we repeat these acts so often that sooner or later, we forget that it was our figment of imagination... We lie, to ourselves and to others, so often that the truth slowly suffocates from our indifference and dies..
If only we could let a void remain as it were.. To stand as a testament of how we tried and how we failed... To stand as an edifice of courage, rationality, compatibility and self-contentment that defined our character... Isn’t nothingness more respectable than something that should have never been there?
