That extra mile

I saw a rather rare streak of energy in my mannerism today (or yesterday, if you are really serious about technical details).... Since past some years, I'd started assuming that I can spread happiness even passively.... somewhat like diffusion where the the ink drop spreads through the width and depth water... Today I realize that by trying a little harder... I can go an extra mile....

At an intensely abstruce yet an unconscious level, I wanted the day and the occasion to be the happiest... or even happier than a normal day... This eventually led to a laugh where a smile would have done.... and a smile where there were none.... A statement that need not have been necessary.... a temporary disregard towards bothering to determine what is necessary and what is not.... it was like an emotional high.... a point where you have an out of body experience... where you go somewhere between the heaven and earth and see yourself down below... that way you can control (or as in my case, let go) of oneself in a better way..... I loved myself today... Makes me wonder.... where I was all these years??.... did I go an extra mile today.... or was I travelling less all these while?...... I would love to be what I was today..... dont we all want a certain part of our lives freeze framed?... a perfect moment when everything was where it is supposed to be and everyone who were there, had to be there at that point in time....

Average

We live in a house which is too small to be called a "Bungalow" and too well kept to be called a tenement (which I just learnt that it means 'A run-down apartment house barely meeting minimal standards'. Thank you WordWeb). When my father decided to increase the living area by an additional floor, One of the criteria that he had had in mind was, how big is the house adjoining ours? Because, it'd be senile to undertake a construction which is smaller than the one nearby and it would be a blasphemy to increase the scale way beyond the others in the 'society'.. Going just one additional floor would be friendly competition.... but going beyond that would mean the invocation of anti-trust laws!

Over a period of time, everyone constructed.... and more or less, everyone had this underlying criteria in their blueprints... so we ended up in a society of clones... each house sickeningly similar to the one nearby.... Thus, proving true the law of averages...

Fundamentally, Humans are a confused lot... we never seem to know what we have, but we know for sure that its not enough!... If the human race were to be plotted on a graph then probably it would show normal distribution curve.

a vast majority of us will be concentrated in the middle of this bell shaped curve... on the left would be the unfortunate few in the society who never got a level playing field... and on the right will be the privileged few who dared to escape from the concentration camp in the middle.. We look at disdain on those who are on the left and want to come in... and we look with an equal disdain on those willing to break out... At one level, we want to be that someone who managed to stand out in the crowd... but at a larger level, we console our wounded conciousness by stating that we are happy with what we have, that we have an average life which, although not spectacular; is still better than the lives of all those on the left..

I dont mean to be judgemental and altruistic by preaching that we commit a sin by being average... we all have our reason... and some, have excuses.... I just want the world to realize that no matter where they stand... there is always some space left above... and in case, you dont want to take the risk... Please let the way in for those who do....

Black and White...

David Ogilvy would have hated my blog.... The great advertiser was of the view that the matter layout should always be black letters on a white background, rather than what you see right now... But the purpose of my blog is impress myself, to supress myself and to express myself... Taking care of Mr. Ogilvy's ground rules doesn't figure in my scheme of things...

I started this blog with a very basic post and a very basic idea that I wish to share my interpretation of life with all those who care to read... somewhere down the line, my life has started mimicking my blog rather than the other way around.... The present layout of this blog defines the present status of my life....

I experimented with colors... I chose some which really didn't define me.... and gave them an opportunity to do so.... they disappointed.... a color that you dont wish to see on yourself is a stain.... so the only option left with me was Black or white.... Here on, it was just a matter of cancelling the non-viable options (something, I used extensively in my MBA entrances)... so I've decided to opt for black because I know that I dont want to opt for white.... for me, white signifies tameness, defeat, rigidity, lameness and all the similar words that you may find for the ones already mentioned, in the thesaurus... Black is infinite, enigmatic, curious..... I love the way black makes your eyes strain in order to make these words legible... I love the concept of infinite black.... no beginning, no end, enveloping everything, yet so empty.... revealing nothing yet explaining so much.... One more thing about black is that it never surprises... one doesn't expect much from black so there is not much expectation to live up to.... when all the colors have disappointed in one way or the other, I thought that it was the apt time to embrace black...

If you have any comments, let me know.... I really dont know if I'd care... but I'd still like to know....